Breaking Bad Finale Predictions

I am a little (too) obsessed with Breaking Bad and well, since I have to wait until September 2nd for the next episode.. I can't help but to think of the possible finale predictions..

So, before the finale actually happens.. here are my predictions! (You heard it here first) or *read

a) Hank will find out that Walt is Heisenberg and will tell him to run away.. and in that case, Walt will (He is seen celebrating his 55th birthday [three from now] by himself at a Dennys far away) run away and build a new empire.

b) Walt will kill Jesse and then fleed to a far away State because his family will come to know.
So its gonna be ironic that Walt started his as a dying man...yet he lives and Jesse dies as a result...but Walt moves forward and leaves his past behind.

c) Walt is going to die because things will come full circle again with the whole cancer thing

he will have lost his business, his wife and family so he will turn himself into Hank and then commit suicide.

 

..Im getting ready for the Finale.. Absolute end :( with a Breaking Bad party! Me and my friend are buying the chemical suits and gas masks and making blue meth candy LOL.. how sad :(.. but we are obsessed. Were saving it for Halloween too :)..

 

Weird but talking about Breaking Bad made me so happy.. very uplifting!

 

Ok bye!

Concerts

Over the past few years I've had the pleasure of attending to some of the best concerts in my city. I don't want to forget so I'm going to keep track right here and share them with you too :)

1. Rock The Bells Tour
Feat: Nas, Rakim, Murs, Redman & Method Man, The Pharcyde, Mos Def and A Tribe Called Quest (Yes, Q-Tip too).. Needless to say, it was amazing. Standing for about what seemed like 11 hours was hard.. I think it was for 6 hours I may be wrong.. But I remember me and Rob went at about 8 or 9am. The picture below is the actual flyer and the line-up.

2. Glow In The Dark Tour
Feat: Rihanna, Kanye West & N.E.R.D (Apparently Lupe but I don't remember that)
..Again it was amazing! I think we were a bit far back but it was still good. This one I went with Rob, My brothers GF and Rob's good friend. :)

3. My Personal Favorite and most anticipated concert EVER.............
Boys II Men
Me and Rob drove all the way to Orillia and stayed the night there for this one. It was at Casino Rama.. it was just AMAZING. I remember hearing them singing even days after the concert ended.

4. JAY-Z!
Yes.. finally, JAY-Z. This one was on Halloween night and Jay came on with the Jason mask from under the ground.. it was pretty damn awesome. I forgot what the tour name was.... I know J.Cole and Drake were there too though.......Although I got pretty annoyed.. I wanted Jay-Z only!! I went to this one with My two guy friends and yes, Rob was there too :)

5. J.Cole :) -The Warm Up & The Sideline Story
I went to both of his concerts every year he had come to my city! I went to his one with my friend and we had the pleasure to actually meet and hang out with J.Cole himself.. it was a dream come true indeed. It was an amazing concert.. no words can do justice.. he is just such a talented young man.. and ofcourse............Drake was there. The second one was with my other friend and again we had a super blast :)

6. Usher, Trey Songz, Miguel and Drake
So this one was a little different. I went to this one  with 5 of my girlfriends.. I loved every minute of it too. Usher is a good performer to say the least. He was pretty sexual too- ha. He played all his old school jams which made us very happy! Trey Songz was really good too- really sexual as well. Miguel was very brief but did his thing while he was up there.. Drake ofcourse surprised us all (he was good too).

7. Coldplay!
Rumor had it that this may have been the last concert Coldplay was doing. My friend approached me (knowing Im the only one who liked Coldplay) and asked to go. How could I refuse? After all, Coldplay is the Beatles of our generation!! Since it was just yesterday that I went.. Im still in SHOCK. By far THEE best concert I have ever attended in my life. Coldplay is known for their amazing performance but wow.. this was MIND-BLOWING. It was like one HUGE Party.. it was packed.. sold out. There was a confetti party, light show (with everyones wristbands lighting up) and beach balls being throw around the entire venue with everyone just hitting it back to eachother.. Chris Martin and the guys did an amazing job!! They didnt even take a break at the intermission.. they refused, they just kept on going.

Future Concerts I'd Like To Go To:

-Bryan Adams (Please and Thank YOU)
-Jack Johnson
-Corrine Bailey Rae
-Frank Ocean
-Bon Jovi
-Chicago
-John Mayer
-Kings of Leon
-U2
-The Weeknd

Tears On My Pillow

Today I will be crying myself to sleep as I feel so drained. Im laying here in bed trying to sleep but cant stop my tears from hitting the pillow.. I have decided to blog about it instead. I haven't cried in a while but today I just feel so blue. I'm going through a lot of crap right now and I just feel so shitty. I have amazing friends but I dont want to burden them with my problems, its just not fair to them. I have got to deal with this on my own.

I just can't go on faking a smile anymore. A lot of time times I am genuinly happy but most of the time, I'm not. Everyone knows me as a happy-go-lucky, always positive and always happy girl.. but Im far from that. Yes I do always see the glass half full and all that but there are times when I just feel like giving up and don't care anymore.

A lot of the times I maintain being that happy girl around my friends because sometimes they need it too. They need to be ME so I can uplift them as well. I have no problem being hoenst with those close to me and telling them everything as it is.. however, I do have a problem saying no and not being able to help my friends when they need it. Its sad to say but I do put everyone else before me. Its just the way I have always been, and as I get older.. I will only be that way more and more. Being a Mother one day in the future, I'm going to put my babies before me. I guess I'm just stuck in some training.

...Tonight is one of those nights.

Its true that the girl who is always there for everybody.. likes to have someone there for her too. Sometimes I wish the one guy who could ease all my pain would come through. I cannot stand to see him upset, I would always want to be there for him. But then again hes no psychic who knows when I'm going through a hard time. I just like to be treated the way I treat others, thats all.

At the end of the day, Life ain't fair. Sometimes you will get the short-end of the stick and theres not much you can do about it but make the most of what you've got.

Don't get me wrong- I'm very, very independant but there are times that I just wish I had him (or someone) to lean to.. to be all ears for me. To give me that unconditional love that I deserve.

My time clearly isn't now..

Time to go to sleep, alone......Goodnight.

59 Things Happening As You Read This

1. Somebody is very proud of you.
2. Somebody is thinking of you.
3. Somebody is caring about you.
4. Somebody misses you.
5. Somebody wants to talk to you.
6. Somebody wants to be with you.
7. Somebody hopes you aren't in trouble.
8. Somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
9. Somebody wants to hold your hand.
10. Somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
11. Somebody wants you to be happy.
12. Somebody wants you to find him/her.
13. Somebody is celebrating your successes.
14. Somebody wants to give you a gift.
15. Somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.
16. Somebody hopes you're not too cold, or too hot
17. Somebody wants to hug you.
18. Somebody loves you.
19. Somebody admires your strength.
20. Somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
21. Somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
22. Somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
23. Somebody thinks the world of you.
24. Somebody wants to protect you.
25. Somebody would do anything for you.
26. Somebody wants to be forgiven.
27. Somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
28. Somebody wants to laugh with you.
29. Somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
30. Somebody is praising God for you.
31. Somebody needs to know that your love is unconditional.
32. Somebody values your advice.
33. Somebody wants to tell you how much they care.
34. Somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
35. Somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
36. Somebody wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
37. Somebody treasures your spirit.
38. Somebody wishes they could STOP time because of you.
39. Somebody praises God for your friendship and love.
40. Somebody can't wait to see you.
41. Somebody loves you for who you are.
42. Somebody loves the way you make them feel.
43. Somebody wants to be with you.
44. Somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
45. Somebody is glad that you're his/her friend.
46. Somebody wants to be your friend.

47. Somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
48. Somebody is alive because of you.
49. Somebody is wishing that you noticed him/her.
50. Somebody wants to get to know you better.
51. Somebody wants to be near you.
52. Somebody misses your advice/guidance.
53. Somebody has faith in you.
54. Somebody trusts you.
55. Somebody needs your support.
56. Somebody needs you to have faith in them.
57. Somebody will cry when they read this.
58. Somebody needs you to let them be your friend.
59. Somebody hears a song that reminds them of you.

First Camping Experience

On Saturday, Three of my very close friends and I went camping! It was yet another spontaneous decision that we made, but boy are we ever glad! I was a little worried about the insects and the possibility of animals coming to our tents at night but...nothing happened!

We had a hard time getting our fire started but after burning an entire book we got our fire to catch on to the fire wood. 

We roasted marshmallows, made smores (mm), played some games then headed back to our tent to chit chat and eventually fall asleep. Unfortunatley, I didn't fall asleep (although I was very comfy). I got up at around 6am and started to go for a walk around the camp line. The morning breeze felt amazing! I could walk and walk for hours..
 I cannot wait to go camping again!

I'm really exhausted--hence my poor grammar and shitty post about camping.

Narrative Therapy

Hmm, I have lots of thoughts on narrative therapy that are sparking in my head. So I thought I would share. This I guess, would be relevant to anyone who does counselling or works in a setting where they are helping others. (and ofcourse, i suppose you can use this technique with someone your trying to help). If you already dont know, narrative therapy is a technique which was created by Michael White. The purpose of this therapy is to 'create the life story' of the client and have them turn their problem into a character or give it some sort of identity. For those of you who are lost (if anyone even reads this).. i'll give you an example.. Lets say theres a 8 year old boy named Mark. Mark soils his bed and has been doing it for many years. Mark comes in to see me to discuss his soiling issue but he is hesitant to speak up about it. So, I suggest the idea that we call this problem 'Sneaky Poo'.. SNEAKY POO is a bad guy who makes Mark do things he shouldnt be doing at his age. Me and Mark will then create an illustration of his day by creating a comic book (which he would love).. In this comic strip, Mark is the hero and destroys Sneaky Poo and fights him off... and then, VICTORY.

It might sound a little weird, but it works! and I think one of the reasons why it works is because us humans find it easier sometimes to shift blame on to something else-- it makes dealing with the situation a little easier when you can look at the sitation and say 'the devil made me do it' or 'sneaky poo' made me do it. Thats why I think this technique really works!!

Sometimes, or in most cases.. its SOCIETY that is the 'devil'. For example, lets take Tara for example. Tara is suffering with anorexia.. well, shes anorexic because of the way society makes women look. She needs to be about 30 lbs less than her current weight.

Do you get where Im going with this? If not.. it doesnt matter..
Talking about this made me feel good. BYE :)

Water For Granted?

I've always thought about this for a while and its time I just let it out. If you're reading this from anywhere in the North America or in any other developed nations.. chances are good that you can easily go to your kitchen and get yourself a glass of clean, cool water. Right? Or if you've had a long stressful day.. you can come home to a nice warm bath... right?

Unfortunatley, that's not the case in some parts of the world. In such places, children have to walk miles and miles just to get a bucket of murky water.. Which they then have to carry back to their families. These families often have to go to the nearest body of water and bathe themselves there. Picture a swamp.. you wouldn't dare step foot in it.. but sometimes thats what people have to bathe in. Its hard to picture, given that we don't have such circumstances.. but it's real.. and it's happening in other countries out there.

As Canadians, we go swimming, play with water balloons, go to swimming lessons, have water parks, beautiful fountains to look at and various other activies in which we participate which have to do with water..........Which is fine and all, we have the luxury of water, so why wouldn't we?
But, a child in a non-developed country is literally dying to just have ONE sip of water.. but we are here PLAYING in water? making water balloon PRANKS out of water??.. We are so PRIVLEDGED!! We are so fortunate to have access to clean, drinking water.

We often take our water here for granted, but we shouldn't. SO, appreciate every sip of water you drink.. and when you're out there playing in water... remember that there is someone out there who would die for a sip of it. Just be thankful.. be grateful.. and give to others and charity when you can.

He Say, She Say

This is going to be a complete rant..

This is a situation that happened a couple months ago but it really irks me and is bothering me right now. So, what happened was that someone who is a lot older than me (who you would think would be mature and have better things to do) went and told somebody else something that I did not say.

A told B that I said I was going to marry C and move to his city.. or something of the sort..

Firstly, me and C are not together... nor have I once mentioned C's name to A!

B & C are good friends.. and so, C told me what had been said.......

Because C wants to maintain his friendship with B, I am sworn to not confront A about this.. and BOY am I itching.. but I won't.....ever.

I've tried to be civil with A and be normal with A aswell but its just too hard. I hate being fake and putting on a front because my face can easily tell if im uninterested. Im glad that A til this day doesnt know anything because I havent said anything... but if I didnt care about B & C's relationship...... I wouldve already said something.

Anyways, Im not about drama nor will I ever be.. but a girl has to vent. I wish I knew A's motives.. or why A would say such a thing because to me it makes no sense at all. Im just so confused... and its like Im in the dark.. I cant get any answers to the questions in my head...

But for the sake of C............ I put this fiasco to rest.. I am done with it now..... I just wish in the future people wouldnt make up bogus for no reason at all. Some people just dont make sense to me.

Police Brutality

Another article I read and here are my thoughts!

Click to see the article here ..I read it in the actual newspaper so it might differ.

Police corruption has always been a question on people's minds for a very long time and this is because the police are no longer citizens protecting citizens, they are citizens turned police officers. Police officers are now a group of citizens that join together and do as they are trained and sometimes more. The authority and higher power gets to the heads of the police officers and eventually they turn into different people. In this article, people are commenting on their personal views of the articles topic "Are police 'above the law?'" The Toronto Star is taking a stand and trying to see what people actually think about the topic of police corruption as it has always been in the hearts of everyone after hearing and seeing different situations so now they can speak on it and citizens don't have many nice things to say.

 People that have been through police corruption situations will not trust the police's word for anything. It is clearly shown in the article as everyone who has commented has commented against the police and believes that they do, in fact, believe they are above the law. The only person who didn't was an SIU Executive Officer who said that the "civilian agency" is doing a great job at keeping corruption away from police forces. However, two people decided to refute this and argued that this "civilian agency" he is talking about is made up of ex-police officers. Therefore, police officers are helping keep police forces clean? I don't think so - this seems more like a helping hand at keeping it "in the family." A women proclaimed that the police is sometimes untrained for situations that she caught herself in with her son being schizophrenic and being dying due to reasons that are undisclosed, however, she advises that the police are untrained for the mentally ill and act in ways that they act with citizens that are not mentally ill. The same website, hotline or meeting place can solve the issues of these people. They need to share their opinions and situations in order to make themselves feel they have left their mark and have done something to better society in a way. Just like many police forces have charities or organizations that promote different causes, they should have a cause for those who have been in situations of police corruption in order to show citizens that police officers are also aware of the corruption and there are good police officers out there. All these people are asking for is some gratitude and an apology, and these gestures can give them their safety back. For any professional representing these groups, they should be very careful in the context they address these people in. They are a sensitive group of people who feel they have been stripped of their safety because they have no 911 to call anymore simply because they don't trust 911. Use of terms, words and authority need to be carefully taken into consideration when addressing the issue of police corruption.

And this is not to say that all cops are bad either, but there are some rotten ones.. 

School Suspension

Don't mind the grammar, I have so much to say and I'm just going to go nuts on the keyboard.

Today, I read an article which discussed how many children in public schools are suspended far too many times and far too quickly. The fact that this article is even being issued is a great factor, it is paired with actual case studies of children who are outlining when and for what they were suspended for as well as outlining where they are now in life. Many of these students are in university and are off to being great young adults. One student outlined that he skipped class to attend a funeral and was suspended, another admit to smoking pot on school grounds and was still suspended. This causes confusion because it is to my understanding that missing class for a funeral is a legitimate excuse. The parents of the student should have been asked if this excuse was valid and therefore, the student would not have to be punished for something they did not lie about. Also, a child that admits should be rewarded not punished, if I were to tell the truth and got suspended anyways - next time, I would lie and maybe that would help me not get suspended. Children are sensitive, they are going through tough times, trying to find your identity, a nice boyfriend/girlfriend and good friends at the same time as studying and trying to get good grades is hard. The social aspect of school becomes way too much to deal with and kids often have their slips. The fact is schools are very quick to suspend children for things that aren't fair, it is the reason why the statistics of schools are slipping more and more every day.

In my opinion, I'd say that children should not be suspended for everything and anything they walk into the principal’s office with; if anything they should receive in-school punishment. Every school should employ a social worker (so not saying this for my own personal reasons ;) ) or someone with qualifications to deal with students who can talk with the student when they are suspended and hear their side of the story. Principals, vice-principals and teachers often have too much paperwork and other things to do so it is easy to just suspend them. Children should be sent to a social worker to discuss what they feel or what's been going on and a report should be attached to the students file to allow the other staff knows what these issues are. Every student is not the same and this is something students hate the most; they are individuals and are trying to make their own identities so grouping them together just makes them more angry. Work with the students not against them! If every student talks to a social worker than attends a classroom to do a couple of anger management or behavioural classes than suspension won't be like an early march break anymore - it'll be like school without a lunch break! Journalists need to keep tabs on statistics of schools, suspension rates and such so that staff of schools can be aware of the problems that are out here and maybe they will start changing their ways. Keeping school staff aware and keeping children in-school for suspensions is the way to go!

Music

I LOVE Music. Its everything to me.
I listen to and appreciate all genres of music. Im more of a lyrics kind of girl as opposed to a beat girl. By that I mean, Im not into what the song really sounds like but more about the meaning of the song and lyrics. A lot of my favorite songs are my favorites because I can either:
a) relate to them very well
b) I appreciate the meaning of it even though I cant quite relate to it. It must be very strong.

 I appreciate singer and song writers because they write their own songs and it comes from their own personal experiences, theres always a story and a lot of emotion behind their own songs. One of my favorite Singer and Song-Writers is Tracy Chapman.

I also believe that you can tell a lot about a person by what music they listen to. But maybe its just me...

Here are some of my favorite songs, and you'll notice how they differ in terms of genre.

This Womans Work- Maxwell
Karma Police- Radiohead
Fast Car-Tracy Chapman
If Not Now- Tracy Chapman
Crash Into Me- Dave Matthews Band
With or Without You- U2
Closer To My Dreams-Goapele
No Greater Love- Blu
Enchantment- Corrine Bailey Rae
Beautiful- IMX
You're The Inspirtation- Chicago
Gravity- John Mayer
Stop This Train- John Mayer
I Don't Trust Myself- John Mayer
Sideways- Citizen Cope
Dead Presidents 3- Jay-Z
The Light- Common
No Ordinary Love- Sade
Go- Common
Look After You- The Fray
Over My Head- The Fray
Message In A Bottle- The Police ft. Sting - Also love John Mayers cover on it
Candy Rain- Soul For Real
Warning Sign- Coldplay
Trouble-Coldplay
The Hardest Part- Coldplay
Fix You- Coldplay
The Scientist- Coldplay
Twisted- Keith Sweat
Angel- Jack Johnson
Better Together- Jack Johnson
Iris- Goo Goo Dolls
Wonderful Tonight- Eric Clapton
California Dreaming- The Mamas and Papas
Hotel California- The Eagles
Californication- Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Water Runs Dry- Boys II Men
On Bended Knee- Boys II Men
Close To You- Maxi Priest
He Say, She Say- Lupe Fiasco
You vs Them- Jhene Aiko
Electric Relaxation- Tribe Called Quest
The Girl- City and Color
Allure- Jayz
Hey Jude- The Beatles
If I Ruled The World- Nas Lauryn Hill
Imagine- John Lennon
Always- Bon Jovi
Jazzy Belle- Outkast
Do For Love- Tupac
Unconditional Love- Tupac
Kryptonite- 3 Doors Down
Losing My Religion- REM
Maybe Im Amazed- Paul McCartney
More Than Words-Exreme
You Got Me- The Roots
River Of Dreams- Billy Joel
Shes Always A Woman To Me- Billy Joel
When You Love Someone- Bryan Adams
Slippin'-DMX
Video Games- Lana Del Ray
The Way You Do The Things You Do- UB40
Champagne Supernova- Oasis

...And I LOVE OLDIES!

Unicorns?

If you havent already realized by now.. I think a lot! And about random things too...

When I was in my grade 10 Chemistry class, I was in a heated debate against my whole classroom on whether or not Unicorns exist.

Ok-  I dont know if I wanted to believe they were alive because when I was young I had this Unicorn plush toy that I slept with everyday--- or if I just felt that they really did exist. Whatever it was, something always made me believe that they did in fact exist.

Think about it- has one single person ever travelled all four corners of the universe, climed every mountain or searched in every field to say that they do not exist? I dont think so.

I can see how its impossible for them to fly, given that they weigh a lot. Fine. But, I really do think there are horses out there with horns on the front of their head. I really do. What if Rhinos are just fat Unicorns? Hmm

I dont know where Im going with this but there is a huge possibility that unicorns exist. There are so many species of animals living on uncharted places in the world that still live undiscovered... there is a chance. After all, it is just a horse with a horn jutting out of its forehead. There are whales with a horn growing from their face, so why can't there be horses? Even if they don't exist on Earth, there is a chance of them existing on other unknown planets. Even if they don't exist now, they at least used to.

And that makes me wonder.. what if theres a secret land out there has all these mystical creatures? Hmm, that would be quite interesting!!

Gratitude

“If the only prayer you said in your whole life was, ‘thank you,’ that would suffice.” – Meister Eckhart

Gratitude can change your life. Believe me, I live in gratitude every single day. What is Gratitude? Its being thankful and grateful for everything in your life. From my early teen years I was always a happy-go-lucky optimistic girl. I always looked for the good in every given situation and was hardly ever upset. A lot of people (though they never said it) thought I was in denial or living in some fantasy world. I wasn't, I just looked for the good in every situation and trusted that if I was good to others, only good would return back to me.

How I adopted this mentality? I have no clue. It could be my Mother who on one side is very positive but then she is also very negative. Or, it could be my father who is generally always happy. Either way, I'm glad I think this way!

Every single day when I wake up the first thing I say in my head is Thank You. I am grateful for waking up to another day of my precious life. I brush my teeth and I say Thank You once again for having a toothbrush, toothpaste, healthy teeth and clean water. I continue this through out my entire day, and it has become a routine.

By doing this, any hiccups that occur in my life- seem like nothing to me. If I have 50 things to be grateful for in one day, then why am I going to let one event change my mood?

Ok-- truth be told.. I sometimes get very irritated and get into a state where I think everything is going wrong and I lose it. However, it only takes me about 10 minutes to an hour max to calm down and look for the good in the situation. For example-- If you read my post earlier- I talked about how I was charged with a DUI. Well, when it happened I wasnt happy and in fact I was really upset yesterday to the point of tears.. but then I thought about it long and hard and came up with these things to be grateful for, for my DUI!:

- I didnt hurt or harm anybody. I could've taken someones live.
-Atleast I am alive
-I have an amazing support system. Family & Friends
-I have more time now to enjoy the simple things in life
-I have more time to spend at home which I will be moving from soon
-It was a wake up call for a lot of my friends who will now never drink and drink
-I may have saved my friends from getting in trouble or losing their life by drinking and driving
-I lose the privledge to drive my car for 3 months. Whats 3 months? Nothing. It couldve been 5 years!
-Its changed me for the better
-Some people dont even have cars. I do. Thats something to be grateful for too.

..Do you see where Im going with this? I know sometimes life throws a bunch of crap at you and its hard to look at the good in some situation, but there is good in every situation. Heck- you having eyes to read this is something to be grateful for! and for having the internet, a computer.. education for you to even be able to READ this..

Anywho- You get the point. BE GRATEFUL and say THANK YOU, always!